Anger !!!

I am angry because i failed myself and i have to wait for the better days just because of me. I have to waste my time , my precious time . I have realised how precious the time has become and how hard it is to stay at home just doing nothing. waiting for the day to come.Nothing can happen until the day. I sometimes ask the one upthere is it only me u r after ? I am frustrated because of the rising anger inside me. The hatred i have for many of the things and the desire of being alone.The whole day not being able to talk with anyone and at the end of the day everyone showing up. Sometimes i feel am i the only available one ? Does my life end up here ? I am depressed thinking WHAT NEXT ? WHAT MORE ?