Another day in my life

Everytime i think i've got to d bottom of d pain,i tend to find a new way to sink even lower n i know it's d worst...no matter how bad it is n no matter whatever happens to meh frm now on these few mins will remain wid meh as a shining cautionarybeacon.Is it better lyin down on d bed thinkin hard after d conversation or is it better to cheer urself?i keep askin myself d same thing n i keep lyin down on mah bed until i fall asleep....cryin ofcourse.....n when i get up n i can't take it anymore i die deep inside.....deep inside sumthing sinks.....sumthing breaks knowinly n unknowinly.....I saw for d first time hoe scared i was of losin sumone.....n hoe dis fear has prevented meh frm all sorts of things....givin up smokin....given up mah so called bad habits n all.....Everyone does have d fear of losin sumone ....by any means rite?....not only meh.....death, d ex....anything....Y can't i be less emotional ?...have a heart of a stone so tht i wouldn't love d person so deep n would hurt d person.....damn d fuckin wishes neva cms true rite?


that nite i have to stay awake till dawn
my fate is etched like dis
sorrow has entered n left mah heart
stars,y dunt u fall asleep wid meh ?



He d almighty won't let us meet....we won't slp at nite..
thinkin abt each other.....all night we cry.