The Real MEH !!!!!

I'm all grown up...but i don't feel it right.there r so many things which i yet don't know n till feel like a child.So many things out there which makes meh wish i still was a child.Musn't let them see meh cry , musnt let em see meh lose coz m all grown up n wise.I can take care of myself ...i do say it to all ...but deep inside i say it to myself.i do need sumone...m too tired of all these things...n m too old to believe as to fairies n good things exists ....i watch d cartoons ...good things happenin ...miracles...smile at d end of d happy ending n wish what if life was like dis? but again m too wise n too old to believe in these......then i wish god y ain't a still a child? what's d need to grow up ? to realise d things...to get responsibilities? coz i try n it's so hard to believe.....i try but i cant stop wishin .....i try n i cant stop lukin at stars n wish.....

getting along wid life but still there's sumthing in meh tht holds meh back in mah childhood.....i still wanna watch cartoons. i still believe in god n wish things even then i know things dunt happen.....i wonder if he/she is dere....i believe in ghosts n believe they exists.i still get hurt in small things n cry in small things. i still want small things n when i dunt get it i cry ;) ....will i ever grow up ? Nyahhh tht's meh i guess....i will when i have to .....I shall still believe in stupid things tht may not exists n things tht r just a make belief.....i shall still get angry n forgive n be forgiven....i shall be Meh. Love meh or hate meh...i dunt care....tht's meh ....even if i lose or win in mah journey of life.I dunt wanna grow up. :)