Attack!!!!

D days has just been goin on....meh not knowin how....1 week n then 2 n then 3 weeks have passed....what have i done?nuthin....i try to study but then i become bore in an hr or sumthing......m enjoyin mah freedom....atleast i enjoy sumthing....but deep inside i still feel...it's just gonna last for sumdays.....do sumthing tht's gonna last forver......i ask"what is it?"i hate talkin wid ppls...i hate goin out....prefer stayin in mah rm....workin on mah comp n studyin.....am i really becomin jungalee?m i goin back to mah past again?damn....help meh sumone...m drowning...drowning in mah past...i should be leavin it far away n be walkin ahead......all i can think abt is home......n him n mah frens whom i havent met.....they r there i know....n m happy wid it....i dunt believe in d person whom i see everyday....no i cant be livin like dis....tht's not normal atleast....rite now i do what i wanna do....i dunt care abt mahself n sumtimes i feel i have got a heart of stone....whe has all mah feeling gone?not tht i wanna be an emotional fool but it seems i lack sumthing.......sitting here all alone n sayin tht m getting used to meh has definitely taken meh over.......sumtimes i think mah brain is gonna go "BOOM"....n there i will lie flat.hmmm i wonder how long will i be missed?hehe ofcourse i will be missed but sumday d dead gets forgottenm rite?how is it like to be dead?uffff......hy do i think abt these stupid things instead of utilizin mah time.....hmm like he is enjoyin wid his fren now after a long day work....he deserves tht....ummm mingma writes poems n stories...his creations...tht's awesum.....after tht niranjan dai he just called.......he's back after his exercise....c everyone utilizes time except me D DUMBO..........D STUPID........all i do it sit on mah chair....chat, do d forumin n all d nonsense stuffs or change places n study or sleep or watch tv..........damn what a life i have got ........i indeed had a very bad day tday....i did hurt mah fav ppls.....M SORRY !!! M REALLY SORRY!!!! ummm pls accept tht m not d person i was tday.....i was really a bitch tday.....hehe i know m forgiven by both of ya...but also d guilt is right here......i have to reach nepal soon or else i will be kinda lunatic till d end......HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!